We have decided on the aggressive chemo for Atticus.  His appointment is tomorrow morning.  I am nervous and trying to be optimistic.  Atticus had diarrhea with a little blood on Saturday night and I am hoping that won’t affect anything tomorrow.  He has been fine since and nothing unusual as far as his BMs since that night.

I am having a slightly hard time being optimistic right now because I’m worried about the decision we made…is this the best thing to do for him, what if he has side effects like nausea or fever?  I’m afraid I’ll get discouraged and want to quit…Then I think that I am all he has.  I have to do what is best for him and be positive and make the best decisions.

I have been doing so much reading, talking to the vet, talking it all over with Peter and Krisann and sooo much thinking.  Maybe too much thinking all day today about how he has been lately.

But today, Atticus is really doing well.  He ate leftover catfood after his own dinner, slept with Krisann under the covers with the heating blanket on and has a good amount of energy.  He has been feverish lately and refuses to be under any covers; hasn’t had enough of an appetite to eat much of anything so it is a super treat to see him act so normal.  He is flipping out trying to get treats and being very snuggly.